What my Past Life Experience as a Priestess Taught Me
A past life experience that occurred to me as an opening to many visions & memories coming through in a period of ~5 days in November 2023.
Introduction
It happened on a warm Sunday in Madeira during a Reiki session.
It has been the 2nd time in my life that I experienced a past life and similar to the first one it was
- not planned
- addressed some core blockage in my life
- felt like a physical, karmic release and helped me tremendously to move forward during that particular phase in life
The day before the session I participated in a powerful Kundalini Yoga session.
Then on this particular day, because of some cancellations (synchronicity!) I was spontaneously in a position to receive Reiki from my friend. He tuned in into my energy field and told me that he could sense the Kundalini energy (from the day before) and was not sure if my body was open to receive Reiki.
However, after a while, he started giving me Reiki and I fell into a trance state fast.
During the session, I had some light visuals, but nothing unusual as I normally would have visions during Reiki.
He finishes the session and that’s when things are starting:
I felt an intense energy emerging around my heart chakra.
It gets stronger and stronger and I got up from my massage table into a sitting position and broke down in tears.
Waves of grief, guilt and anger were overflowing my body.
They came somewhere from the lower chakras, deep in the body.
The Priestess
It was too late. We gave everything we could. It was not enough.
I feel the strength of the priestess.
We served side by side, priests, sages, other scholars. We were serving the collective, something way higher and bigger than us.
There was so much love.
Love to this higher intelligence/collective.
Strong devotion.
It was SO incredibly beautiful. Endless potentials. We were able to create everything.
Abundance.
Beauty.
Infinity.
I mostly perceive visions through feelings, so the visuals are rather vague, but I sensed incredibly beautiful architecture and just the thought of the beauty alone still made me tear up months later.
More, more, more. We have to give everything. Wake up! Time is running!
There was a huge catastrophe and I think the priestess (in a leading role) as well as her people died.
She felt responsible for it.
The Days after the Experience
The following 5 days or so I was still on and off between different realms. I was also on my period, so extra sensitive.
Imagine: I wake up the next day and this huge wave of sadness rolls over me and I witness the energy leaving me through tears and shaking, accompanied by some random memories.
1h later, I sit in front of my computer in a work meeting, trying to keep my facade together.
Then, suddenly a memory emerges again (often times just knowings, not tied to emotions) and I freak out a bit, then remember to get some food for grounding, then talking to myself that I’m not crazy, don’t have to believe everything and can write things down for later.
So, during that time I was kind of aware of what was going on, doing my best to just be an observer while still maintaining my human role in front of other people.
Some Remembrances
The remembrances were all mostly felt with vague visual outlines, so I don’t have any details. Also not 100% certain if they were all from the same life of the priestess, same time and how they relate to each other
Ancient Worship of Women
As I said I was on my period and I had this flashback where women would be cared for & treated with love during their bleeding phase. It felt like a civilisation where everyone had their place and all roles were of equal importance (non-hierarchical).
Visions of Beautiful Temples/Buildings.
I’m learning to draw so that one day I might be able to get those visuals on paper.
Reconnecting with the Essence of Madeira
When going out for walks in nature in our current reality it felt like reconnecting with a past love.
I sensed that I knew the essence of Madeira and now we meet in again in different forms.
Every leaf, every tree, everything was a different manifestation of this essence.
I cried many tears.
I Tuned into the 5D / Abundance Field
I don’t have better words to describe this experience, and the New Age has excessively been using the words ‘5D’ & ‘Abundance’. They may be accurate, they may not. You decide.
I could feel the field of massive abundance and beauty layered above or in(?) our physical dimension. It felt like I was swimming in abundance.
There was nothing that was not Abundance/Love/God.
It was a feeling of completeness, fullness, non-separation from non-abundance.
Could probably be described similar to an acid trip without the visuals.
A deep inner knowing that this is the field where manifestations, prayers, and miracles are born.
A realisation that this is what we are aiming for when talking about the New Earth.
To tune into this infinite field of potentials and bridge the gap between Heaven & Earth, ‘Higher’ and ‘Lower’ dimensions.
Some Contemplations about the Past Life Remembrances
I believe that my depression in this life time was a manifestation of the unprocessed grief & guilt of the priestess
This is a huge one. I was depressed & fantasised about suicide from early childhood on.
My environment growing up has not been easy and I will not go into any details here.
I used to feel a lot of fear and death always very close to me.
My strong people pleaser tendencies seem to be tied to the fear of people dying if I don’t give my all to save them.
I started therapy at age 20 and eventually got on a spiritual path.
Life is very good since many years with its usual ups and downs.
My parents are good people who love me and we talked through a lot of difficulties.
However, the cathartic, crying releases during this past life experience felt like getting rid of some more heavy burden and karmic energies, that I wasn’t aware of carrying.
I assume the priestess life to be physically located at where the island I have been, Madeira, is today.
None of those past life remembrances gave me any clue about what exact civilisation it could have been or when it happened.
I was more tuning into meta information, and as my spiritual gifts were not developed too much, unfortunately I was not able to get more detailed information.
(Or no more information was needed than what has been given.)
What I am left with Today (1.5 years later)
We are all in the Grand Play of Consciousness together, working out and intertwining different karmic patterns, and every experience exists for a reason.
I feel the power of experiencing past lives lies in the integration phase afterwards. In this very physical plane in the here & now.
The experience of the temple & priestess energy gave me the confidence & strength to continue this blog.
And to share my experiences that feels true to me and my body no matter how ‘crazy’ they may seem to the logical mind conditioned by modern society.
I got even more aware of how quickly I carry other people’s responsibility or how I always rush to help, care & listen.
Without caring about my own energy resources first.
As I released more of the priestess’ guilt about not being able to save people, I can respond better now from an aligned place.
I’m always happy to make time to listen to a friend, but I don’t need to play the overly empathic listener all the time and drain myself.
I learn to say no more often and set boundaries according to my energy level, and not according to other people’s wants.
It feels amazing to grow a stronger sense of self and roots into this world, without being swept away by other people’s energies.
As a HSP, this has been a struggle all my life.
My trust in life deepened.
Of course life continues with its usual ups and downs, but every time I remember this experience I feel unshakeable gratitude & trust in the Mystery of life.
Last Words
Thank you so much for reading.
Being able to type out these words and sharing them on my blog for a potential audience to read feels incredibly empowering and liberating.
This is my contribution to a more balanced world.
A curious world where we can safely share our stories of the nebulous awakening process.
A more open hearted world that is remembering its own divinity.