a morning like this

I woke up today in silence.

Two days in row that I woke up without morning anxieties.

Without a tv on maximum volume displaying all my todos and flaws I need to work on and existential dread crashing down on me.

Without that slight disappointment of being here again, in this human body, having to get up and play some role.

I can’t remember the last time this happened.

This type of mental clarity that feels like crystal-clear water.

I want to keep it forever.

The sun was warm on my face on the way to the train station.

My pores felt free and pure.

I inhaled the warm rays deeply, as if I was being blessed with light for the first time in my life.

I allowed myself to feel gratitude for my existence just for a moment.

And another moment.

I attribute this state to yesterday’s 4h hike in the forest. And to the care I’ve been putting into digital hygiene and energetic cleansing lately:

Deleting my Instagram account a week ago
Removing many apps on my phone I don’t use
Blocking certain distracting websites
Doing occasional phone / messaging fast of up to 24 hours
Refusing to give my attention to any purely AI-generated, sensational or low effort / low vibrational content
Doing energy cleansing exercises before bed
Checking in with my energy throughout the day and consciously breathing into my chakras.

note to self: please keep educating yourself and applying these things, not only when you feel bad.