Hello Saturn Return

Saturn moves back into Aries today for a second round.

From May 24th – September 1st, 2025 it briefly stepped into Aries, then retrograded into Pisces, and returns now to stay until April 2028.

The moment Saturn reaches the exact degree of my Aries placement, will be in a couple of weeks.
Still, I welcome today with open arms.

Hi Saturn! I’ve been waiting for you.
I’ve been internally preparing myself since mid-2024.
I’ve felt your pressure building over the past 1.5 years.

I’m ready to finally meet you.

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There’s something so exciting about knowing that you’re entering a phase of intense change.

Like life-changing change.
Not like a full moon release ceremony every month.
Or an eclipse once or twice a year.

Saturn takes about 29.5 years to make one full orbit around the sun.
If you’re lucky, you’ll experience this up to three times in a lifetime.

They say a Saturn Return will turn your whole life upside down - and afterwards nothing will look like before.

I read about people getting out of toxic relationships. Meeting the love of their life. Losing loved ones. Going through intense grief period. Losing jobs. Finding their dream job. Battled health issues. Moving countries. Everything all at once.

A time of upheaval, defined by uncertainty and loss.
A time that asks one to grow up.
Take responsibility.
To commit to your dreams.
To rise in most uncomfortable situations.

A threshold, an initiation to adulthood.

I’ve been thinking a lot about how this could look like for me

I’ve already been hanging by a thread for over a year with no job, no home, single and friends spread all over the world.

Sometimes, I secretly beg Saturn to help me find clarity.

I can’t imagine anything more uprooting happening than my current situation.
(edit: looking at the state of the world right now, I actually do…)

Nonetheless, let’s dial back for a moment:

My 20s were anything but stable.
My whole life has been defined by constant change.

I moved at least seven times before I turned 18.

As a kid, I always envied others who grew up in the same house, in the same neighbourhood they were born in.

The longest I’ve ever called one place home was eight years.

I’ve always had to make new friends in different environments and learn to adapt quickly to new changes.

And then:

• I kicked off my 20s with a 10-week stay at a mental hospital.

• Came out stronger and finally finished my Bachelor’s degree in engineering at one of the best technical university in Germany.

• Completely disillusioned from society, I left my life in Germany behind and went to Portugal.

• Found a spiritual community that felt like home.

• Lost my spiritual family and home.

• Found a job through which I became a digital nomad.

• Had the time of my life on Madeira (staying at seven different places in one year).

• Lost my job.

• Moved back to my parents in the last year of my 20s.

In between:
dating & crushing. falling in and out of love.
learning that pouring all my life energy into myself is the biggest act of self-love.

having many incredible friendships, losing almost all of them. making new ones.
realising i actually do have the social skill to make new ‘friends’ very quickly, but that deepening worthy friendships is really difficult.

battling lifelong depression. becoming pain-free after two herniated discs.
going from lowest of lows to highest of highs and anything in between.

travelling to some countries, but found out that i like to be a slow traveller.
a slowmad (slow nomad).

finding god. getting angry at god. losing sight of god. repeat.
my faith is now my main anchor in life.

All I can Say to my Saturn Return Is This

Will I be able to make a living out of writing, making art and changing people’s lives?

Give me all the opportunities.
I want to continue blogging.
Write a book.
Give a ted talk.
Offer readings.
Get to know and collaborate with other awesome artists.

I want to inspire people to discover their infinite potential.
To share my gifts in communities.
To help dreaming and building the New Earth.
To anchor visions in.

I want to find my soul family.
Move to the Asian island.
Buy land and build a temple.

The heat is turned up.
Together with the year of the Fire Horse I feel slightly delulu and unstoppable at the same time.

Let’s bring it on❤️‍🔥🐎